So for the past 3 years I have been blessed in the fact that I got to stay at home with my daughter. It was a very tough decision to come to originally as I was working hard at being an accountant and was definitely rising to the top but the question I kept coming back to was at what cost. I was working probably around 50-55 hours in a 4 day week plus driving 45 minutes each way to work. By the time I got home at the end of the day after starting at 5 AM I was exhausted and not much good to my family. On the weekends I would stress about trying to get done those things that had been missed and then start stressing about my upcoming week at work.
To say the least I wasn’t very happy.
Then work started making some changes which pushed me to realize I needed to make some changes in my life. I did and became the stay at home mom that I am today. It has been 3 years and I don’t regret much about it. The biggest fear now is the day that its time to go back to work.
Now that my daughter is in Kindergarten I have decided that I need to start thinking about next steps in my life and probably get a job. Can I just say this terrifies me on so many levels?
First off I keep thinking that I need to go back into accounting as I was obviously good at it but after being away for 3 years can I still do it?
Second its going to be a huge adjustment on our family in so many ways. I currently plan all of the meals and home cook most of them, I am hear when our daughter is sick and can’t go to school, I clean the house thoroughly, I research and plan things to do, and I help my parents who are currently having issues selling their house. If I go back to work how do I balance all of that and a job.
I have time before I have to go back but I’m using some of that time to actually research what is out there. Ideally would be staying at home and working from home but I’m not sure how to find a legit opportunity. Stress!:)